Him II

Now in the present as him being my Dom, my mentor. I think of him always, I think of what we’ve done, what he’s done to me. Of how he shows he cares about my training and what I need to be doing, what I need to focus on. I think of how understanding he is and forgiving both important Dom traits, even though some don’t think so. I appreciate his openness to listen to me, and the fact that he’s taken me on as a sub, taking time to train me. I am so attracted to him, love his body, and always have. He’s one of the sexiest men I’ve ever know. He’s eyes are so blue and his smile so genuine. I adore his chest, its broadness, the pectoral muscles uummm. He’s strong legs and thighs are my next favorite thing. His touch, oh my gosh how I love to feel him, for him to touch me, with his hands, his skin next to mine, for me to reach out and touch his legs, his chest, to hold him close to me. To put my fingers on the back of his head and neck. Now that I’m sub, for the last two sessions I haven’t gotten the chance to touch him, he has me cuffed and bound from the start of our session to the end when my mind is off and my soul is away. As much as I love his touch, it’s second to the sound of his voice. I don’t know if any of you have ever had this experience but his voice shoots right through to me, it passes from my ears, threw my heart down to the middle of my spin. I naturally focus on his words and listen to everything he says even though sometimes I don’t hear what he says because I’m so into the tone of his voice. It’s always been like that, only now this sensation that I get from his voice has been magnified 10x. I get this same sensation when I go over very high brides or look down from extreme heights. No, I’m not afraid of heights, I love that feeling. I’ve only felt that one other time in my life, getting that tickling feeling in my spin, the feeling from the sound of someone’s voice, that person would be my first love. I know what you’re thinking; no they don’t sound the same. Him has an accent from back east. I love the way he sounds. Then there’s his cock… his most perfect cock. Though he probably doesn’t think so to me it’s perfect, perfect for me. I love his size, it fits me so well, yet he stretches me, my limits. He gets me so wet when he’s in me and I start to cum from when he first enters me until he pulls it out of me. He’s got fantastic staying power, yes I cum over and over again, I lose count. There’s one thing that I’m going to write here, its hard as it’s admitting something that most woman, most woman that love sex won’t admit to but I don’t really like to give head, to do oral on a man, and I especially don’t like to swallow. Though I have done and will do oral, it’s not a favorite thing, but I’ll do it if my partner likes it. I’ve been lucky that most of the men that have been my BF’s or I have dated liked it but like penetration more, more than cuming in my mouth. He is one of those men, only with Him, I love sucking him, and I try to take in as much as I can of him when I do. I feel myself totally submitting to him when I do this, and I’m surprised it’s over when he stops me or moves away from my mouth. I know he has no idea that I feel this way, and he’ll probably never know most of this as I don’t think I’ll tell him. I may change my mind or if he guesses and ask me then I’ll tell him. One way I can be so open and free with my feelings is knowing that know one that really knows me or Him, will read this or if they read this they will not know it’s me. Yes, this not what a sub should do but remember I’m in training, a newbie of just about a month now. I will work on telling him…