November Update….
A quick update on what’s been going on with me, I didn’t expect to take this long in updating my blog but my life has change! I’ve gone back to school! It’s such a great opportunity for me and I love that I’m learning vast amounts new information and am excited about it!! I’ve met so many new people through it Students, tutors, staff and instructors. It’s amazing how much all of them want to help us learn and grow. All of us students are all in transition, we are in an in between state, but even though it’s an in between I’m enjoying it and having fun!
Now last I wrote it was about R and what was happening before he left. Well after a few trips back and forth we thought we should try and not contact each other anymore, we were ending it much like how I had with D. D not being able to travel to my state due to his job responsibilities it was best we didn’t drag that out. It was the same with R…. I loved being with him and he I but in the end I thought it was just too hard to keep up a relationship like that and so I hadn’t heard from him in a long while, up until last week. He started texting me at first then emailing and calling a few time. I loved hearing from him and learning that he was doing well. He told me he missed me and I told him I had missed him too, and I had but not in the same way as him. He wanted to rekindle things and maybe get me to agree to at least keeping things going while I am in school then after see where I end up and perhaps getting a job in the city he is in now or even close to him in the same state. I know by what he’s told me that the move and change in culture had affected him more than he had expected. He not only missed me but his family and the state. I told him I couldn’t do that and that we needed to leave things are they are now.
He asked why then said he knew why… thinking of what we had talked about before… but that isn’t it.
In my mind I was trying to think of what to tell him.. do I tell him the truth and hurt him or lie and say it was what he was thinking of… I didn’t disagree with what R was thinking so he continues to think it’s because he moved and we are in two very different places in our life’s… But…
The truth is that I have found a wonderful man that I’m totally madly in love with. Hehehe YES I said LOVE! I’m so happy I could Burst!! 
He is an amazing man, so loving, caring and so very smart which I find extremely sexy!! He is so extraordinary, and I can hardly believe that we have found each other! He has captured my heart and I his, he totally understands me and I am what he wants and loves. We have so many things in common that it astonishes us when we discover new things, but yet there is so much about each other that is different enough to spark more interest in each other and we are learning new things all the time!! :)
Of course there is more to write there is always more but for now I’m just going to bask in the warm glow of his love and be comforted by his angel wings that wrap around me. I wish you all peace, love and harmony!!
